Friday, April 29, 2005

I am Confused!!!

Inner-Conflict!!! I am confused with myself…I don’t really know what I actually want in my life..i am currently studying BIOTECHNOLOGY in UTAR. But do I really interest in this course? Undeniable, I love biology, and I m almost good at this subject for I always scored the highest in college. What do I know about biotechnology? Does it has got good prospect in future? What can I be after graduate from University? All I know bout it is juz about doing research to invent new product which is better in quality.HuH!!

I am pretty sure that a part of me has got great interest in accounting as I had been thinking of taking up this course after my graduation. All of you must be wondering why don’t I take up this course instead of biotechnology right? I also dunno why??? All I know that I was too rush and irrational when choosing the course!!!

Am I regretting now? I am not sure too!! Somehow I am used to this kind of feeling already.or another word I m immuned already! Malaysia is looking seriously into Biotechnology now, especially in the field of agriculture. No doubt I have thought about engaging in Food Technology or Nutrition…
I am so confused….can anyone tell me what I am doing now is correct or wrong..?
I m telling myself to do my best in my current study..but I have never give up accounting cuz I m still doing accounts and learning from my frens who are studying this course in my college…

What will my future be? Am I gonna take double major? Or I m going to flung…Damn..i hate it when I have to think bout all this…especially I m having my long holidays now..i m juz too free n I will start to think about all these…n found myself into such dilemma.
I am gonna enter UTAR when the new sem starts.Damn can anyone out there help me?
I m almost helpless here…Does everyone has got the same problems as me? Or I m the only one having such problem? Sometimes I do feel that I m complicated..i have alwiz try to make things simple..too bad it alwiz turn out to be such complicated…!!!If god is a girl..u hav to blif it..cuz life is complicated…

Friday, April 22, 2005

My Redang tRiP

hEY dUDE...I m back from my trip..it was a nice trip...nice place..with nice ppl..n lotz of nice activities...i was having a great time over there..getting too exhausted.but gaining lotz of satisfaction..
Anyway...this trip did not start that smooth at 1st...as i felt sorta awkard there as i was the only junior over there..i dun really know that gang pretty well..n they were not much topic to share about!!..the 1st day was killing me..i was crying to go back..i cant get into the gang...n i felt bored..Yeah..boredom is killing me...!!!
There came 2nd day...i started to get into the gang...initiating a conversation...n so on...i still felt a little left behind..at least it was better than the 1st day..i was really engaging in those activities..i started to laugh..n smile alot..thanz god..!!!
The sea...n the beach is really nice..n fascinating...i feel ease n really relaxing...listening to the waves...n also i enjoy gazing starts at nite....the starry nite is gonna drive me crazy...it is really cool....
Well..i m getting really lazy to blog..so i shall post sum really nice photoes..to share with u all...

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Sunday, April 17, 2005

I miSS sUMONE sOoO....mUCH

I miss my roommate sooooo much!!! N I m gonna miss those great moments we had shared together in kl…gossiping together..studying together..laughing together for nothing..sleeping together..n also having hear-to-heart talk..i really miss those bed-time stories that she use to tell me b4 I sleep…I sent her to KLIA that day..n guess wat…I cried out after she left…N I know…she is sumone really important to me..n she Is definitely certified as the best fren I had ever had…!!!We have got lotz of similarities..we share and we care for each other…I feel comfortable n ease being with her…She is from Sabah…n she is one old older than me..she is juz too GREAT for me!!Complete n Perfect…I GUESS she is missing me right now too!!!The friendship between us is so pure n natural….even though there will be misunderstanding n arguments in between.they are resolved easily….!!!...Glad to know that she misses me a lot too….
I used to have lotz of good friends like her.during my secondary school!! Friends who are really close to each other.Frenz who really have got lotz to crapz..n talk about..But it is sad to say that things have really changed after we left each other to continues our study…I went to TAR College….n the rest of the gangs went into Matriculation!!! Times spent together is getting lesser n lesser…conversation has become shorter n shorter…n the gap has bcome really obvious!!!We do not have common topics to share…nor same interests anymore..Everybody has got their own lifestyle…own circle of frens!!! I used to have a really good fren..or even known as my best fren in secondary..We use to go out yamcha when ever I m back in Tampin…but throught out the session..there is nothing much that we can talk about…the GAP IS THERE…!!We dun have heart-to-heart talk anymore…we dun exchange secret anymore like wat we used to do last time.We are hiding something from each other!I hate this kind of feeling..but it does happen on me..n it is alwiz the same gang will come out for tea everytime..what has happened to the rest of our classmates from 5sc1? “Distance makes the heart grows fonder” Bullshit!!!!
I hate this kind of feelings!!Being ignored when ever we are having tea session!!As I m the only one who went into TAR College…the matriculation gangs will spend most of the time gossiping bout events happened in the matriculation…I dun understand at all WTH are they talking about…sumtimes when they try to avoid revealing ppl’s secret…they will use name as A guy n B guy…to cover up!!!Damn..i will b like a fool…looking at them..listening to things that I will never ever understand!..i feel awkward…n uncomfortable..!!.
I went out with my best fren today..!!i went to fetch her n v decided to go out yamcha…it was pretty hot this afternoon..so v had chosen bakers cottage which is air-conditioned!...v started our conversation. “how are u recently”….it sounded pretty awkward n not natural…but thanz god..it bcame more n more natural..n smooth…we shared bout our study life…relationships…n stuff…I was relieved…n happy..luckily..it was still a good n fine tea session!!But still..i really miss those good old days v had spent together in secondary school!!Things will change…I cant expect things to remain the same anyway rite….?

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Sumone has FrUstrated Me!!!

Some one Has Frustrated Me!!!

OMG! Sumone has pissed me off! This super duper kiasu fren of mine---Shi wei…is a freak!! Girls often get deceived by his outlook..He is kinda tall..slim n no doubt he has got good postures! Just a little compliment for him!But deep down he is a freak..He has got attitudes n behaviours that are really irritating. He will never ever admit that he is doing sumthing wrong..he will never ever claim that he has lost..eventhough he is a loser!! And he shows no concern towards other people’s affairs!! MYOB…is his favourite quote!!”MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS”..
Damn!!!The worst part about him is….he said that having lotz of frens will create lots of troubles to him..as gals..usually fall for him…He will hav to spend lotz of time..entertaning them..or ignoring them!WTF!!!!...Neway…I hav to admit that this fren of mine…he has got his own style…which is damn unique…n his theory bout life..n relationship..sumtimes really inspires me..Sumtimes I too hav to agree with his point of view..WAT THE HELL…I m flattering him….DUH!!
Wanna know how he frustrated me?...He treats me like nobody…huh!! He will only sms me..or call me whenever he needs help….The correct time will be..EXAM SEASON…he will sms me..asking for tips..but after giving him tips…he will claim that those tips are juz too simple for him..Summore he did not even thanz me for waking him up at 2 in the morning..instead of that, he said he did not wake up after putting down the call…he did not appreciate at all..i had to waste my credit..n summore time to call him….
Pissed off!!!>…

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Friday, April 15, 2005

I M nEw!! Dun BuLlY mE..

Finally..the registration is done!!N i m new to it...The biggest worries that i had now is my english Sux!!How m i gonna produce a nice piece of work?i wanna write sumthing that touches your heart..but i know i will end up writting nonesense or lame jokes!!Wanna write bout myself?Nothing special bout me...Adeline..a simple but not nerdy girl...wanna start blogging bcuz wanna start a photo album..Thanz to Jason...But i dun hav confidence with myself..as i know i wont write so often...bcuz i m juz too lazy.Jason..i dun know wether i can keep my blog properly anot..so plez dun promote it ot ur frens lah....Well..to start of, i m having my sem holidayz now.It is a long break for bout one n a half month..i dun really hav much planning or activities..therefore..i m quite worry..except online..n sleep..there is nothing much that i can do!Well..i m a part-time slacker.in case you dont know!I had a quite wonderful time today in malacca with my frens...Jason n Cheah Seong...eventhough jason felt that he was the light bulb..yet i enjoyed the time v spent together..it has been quite sumtime both of us did not come out d...another thing is i accomplished my wish..by meeteing up with my classmates in mahkota parade...n i saw her bf...whom i alwiz long to see..HaHa...Hav Ya watched The Pacifier?Is quite a nice movie...it is funny..n full with lame jokes...i laughed through out that movie....!Neway...thanz..jason n cheah seong...i had a goodtime being with u all...N really sorry that i had to bluff both of u!!juz take it as a small surprise okie...if both of u did angry with me...i apologize yea!...Miracles...i love miracles...i m hoping for miracles every now n then...cuz i believe much in miracle...!Miracles are normal..when they do not occur..Something must have gone wrong!!!..hope that miracles falls on everyone who is reading this blog lah!!...finisih crapping...!Miracles...Miracles...sighz...

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