Girls...CheCk It OuT!!

It’s a myth that couples should have no secrets---Some subjects should always remain off limits in case they lead to jealousy, insecurity or doubts. Here are the things that you should never ever tell your boyfriend!!!

1. “I’ve had 100 lovers”---This will only make your boyfriend feels insecure and arguments will occur from there.

2. “You’re getting flabby”---Maybe his tummy isn’t the splendid six pack it used to be but don’t tell him in the direct way or his self-image will plummet. The more accurate way is to tell him that: “I think we both need exercise, I am not feeling as fit as I used to be. How bout going for badminton or swimming.” Problem solved!!

3. “Your best friend has a crush on me or your best friend confessed to me”--- Girls, this is critical. Do not ever breathe a word bout this to your boyfriend as it may ruin the friendship between your boyfriend and his best friend. Just settle it by yourself, reject that guy directly and tell him how much you love your boyfriend.

4. “My ex was much better than you”--- Are you crazy? Bringing up anything an ex did and saying he did it well is like waving a red flag at a bull. Your boyfriend will feel that he needs to save face, which usually involves a jealous outburst and some manly kind of display like slamming the door or taking off his car at top speed. Of course, you will not be happy if your boyfriend keeps on telling you how great his ex was!!

5. “I hate your mother”---Even if he has to spend an hour character assassinating his mother because she is manipulative and critical, avoid the temptation to zoom in by adding that she is mean spirited, dominates the conversation and has lousy dress sense. Your boyfriend will feel incredibly embarrassed and uncomfortable. Remember that this is his mother and not yours, which means he has carte blanche to say whatever he wants about her, but not YOU!!!

6. “I think that guy is cute”---Whether you’re all aglow when you look at a good-looking in the pub or the waiter in the restaurant, you boyfriend will definitely don’t want to know that you are thinking of anyone, but not him.

7. “My best friend thinks you’re hot”---It’s a total ego boost to hear friends telling you that they think you’ve got the ultimate catch. But resist the temptation to tell him. All men love an audience and he will start playing with her through flirting or driving too fast to show that he is the man. So if your friends talk about how cute, smart and sexy your man is, just listen, agree, and bathe in the glow of his glory.

8. “How much do you love me”---Do not ever ask this question girls. This will only make your boyfriend feels irritating. By asking this, you are actually giving him a kind of feel that you do not trust him.

No matter how close you feel to him, something is better left unsaid.

I Love My Hair

My hair is equivalent to my life. Sometimes I love my hair more than myself. I am more worry when my hair is getting too dry or damaged. I will rush to the hair-salon for hair treatment or do it myself at home. I will never get that worry if I am not feeling well or having gastrict. I don’t mind spending hours in front of the mirror setting up my hair, as I just don’t like going out without my hair done. Sometimes my friends get really annoyed by me, especially when we are late for class!! I don’t mind spending money for hair-styling products, treatment, or trying out new hairstyles despite I have to skip lunch or dinner just to save money. For me, hair is everything and the very important thing to make a person looks great, gorgeous, and attractive, someone says to arouse the attraction of others.

Different hair suits different people. Different hairstyles can reveal the very different personalities of one self. I used to have long-straight hair which gives me a kind of decent and fresh look. My classmates just can’t stop touching my hair! (They said it is soft and silky. Huh! Sounds like the shampoo advertisement on TV.)

After having long-straight hair for more than one year, I decided to change a new hairstyle—that’s my current hairstyle. I permed my hair last month in De’ Emphasis Salon in KL. I was a bit doubt before I decided to do the digital perm. I was scared that I would not look nice with curl hair. I was scared I would look too mature. Luckily, the hair- dresser—Klein was professional enough. I was satisfied with my hair..and many of my friends had given me good comments on my hair. At last, I spent RM400 for the digital perm and also coloring my hair.

After perming my hair, it is now time to take good care of it. As curl hair is not the same as long-straight hair. Straight hair is easy to maintain. After washing it, all you need to do is just apply some treatment oil and comb through it. You can even just leave it to dry and it will still remain straight and nice. But for curl hair, if you do not have much time and patient, your curl will not be nice and attractive. After washing hair, you will have to use lotz of styling gel and sculpting lotion to make your curl tight and neat. I just don’t like loose curl and messy hair. Sometimes this process can take you about one hour.

I just love my hair too much. I shall post a photo of me..with my long-straight hair and also with curl.


This is me In CuRl..


This is me With Staight hair

Why Dont You All Understand Me?

How is it felt when your beloved parents do not understand you and scolded you in the public? How is it felt when you are so disappointed and sad until you have to cry in the public? Just because you guys are too disappointed with 2nd sister that you all have to give me such pressure and stress? How you all think of it before? Can I take the stress? Have I done my best? I swear to you all that I had done my best in all the major and minor exams in college and I took all of those seriously. I am happy and satisfied with my results but why do you all have to compare with others.

“Because you are the most stupid among three sisters. If you still can’t show us your best performance in UTAR, I think it would be better you stop studying and start working.” What would you all feel when your parents said this to you? I knew that from the very beginning I was not your favorite daughter, but I had never ever known that I was that bad and useless in your heart. No matter what had 2nd sister did to hurt you all, she is still forgiven. Still remember those days she stopped studying and went to Singapore without acknowledging you all until you had to find out from the University? And now that she has graduated from the University after being persuaded by you all. I know that you guys are really on top of the world even though she could not get first class honour. But for you all, as long as she has completed her study, this is the best gift ever. She claimed that she would never work as a chemist and remain jobless after graduation, enjoying and doing nothing. Without failing, she always gets what she wants. You guys are willing to let her study bout hair designing and something on cosmetics. How lucky she is.

What about me? I have always asked the least from you all. I do not dare to ask for extra money from you all. I have done my part well and study hard so that I will not disappoint you guys like what 2nd sister did. Just because I could not score 4.0 in my exam, I have to be blamed? Still remember that day when I got my SPM result? I could not score Full A’s. I could only get 9 A’s. Mum had teased me with lots of bad words saying that I m stupid among my friends. Why could Melissa(my eldest sis) scored Full A’s and why could not you? I admit that I am not really that smart and intelligent but I have done my best.

I haven’t entered Utar yet but you guys have already made me feel that bad. I lack of confidence and motivation to go further. As no matter what have I done, I am still the most stupid child in the family.

Mom and dad, I appreciate what you all have done for me. I have already done my best in my study. I just hate it when you all have to compare me with Melissa and some of my friends. Sometimes I feel bad too. And that is why I had always strived hard to get scholarship so that I could reduce you burden for dad is retired. It does not always mean that when you guys are not observing me I am not studying. I am already 19, and I know my responsibilities pretty well. I just hope that you all can understand me better. I don’t know the way to tell you all my feelings as before I could tell anything, I will be scolded. For what ever reason, I still love you all much more that I love myself.

Thank You Dear

These hearts and lips are for you my dear, when you are not around with me. I feel really reluctant when ever you need to leave me to get back to the college. But I know I can’t keep you that long as I know you will always remember me where ever you are. Sorry to you that I have been throwing tempers on you lately. I m not understanding enough and I don’t have much patient. I know you are not happy with all these, but you just love me too much.

You are definitely a nice person, with fine personalities to make the world goes round and also to create a new world for me..A world fills with endless happiness, enjoyment, and satisfaction. A world which is stress-free and the world where I am MYSELF. I feel ease and comfortable being with you. Thanks for being there for me all the times…sunny or rainy days.

I am hoping for Thursday every now and then. I love Thursday because I know you will be coming back. And I hate Sunday because it is the day you will be leaving. Even though time spent together is short, you have never failed to keep me sweet and happy. You have never failed to give a good time for me, sweet enough for me to recall back.

I know you can’t view those hearts and lips. But remember thatTHEY will always remain in your heart and your mind. I appreciate someone as lovely as you. I cherish someone as caring as you. And I just can’t stop thinking of you! You are some one irreplaceable and some one really GREAT. You are simply the BEST.

I hope you will like this post! Just for you..my DEAR!

Lamp Post??

I am a lamp post too..Jason!!! Funny yeah..You used to be the lamp post but now it is my turn! I will not know how it feels until I had tried. Damn weird and embarrassing!! This is the very first time I blushed when I talked. This couple—one used to be my best friend and the guy is my normal friend. They called me out for breakfast the day before and promised to come and fetch me at 10am. I did not think that much when they asked me to go out.

I slept pretty late at that night and as usual I could not wake up on time the next morning. They were already waiting for me in front of my house..before I woke up. After washing up and dressing up myself, I got up their car and everything was still fine. Next, we gonna decide where to have our breakfast and here problem came in. We had a difficult time deciding where to go as they kept on asking me to decide.

Well, I had suggested a nice place where I ate a plate of nasi lemak with sotong and also my favourite drink, Milo Kosong Ais. The couple was so quiet or maybe they are just to shy to talk in front of me.. I had to try hard to start a conversation. But the conversation SUX! It is either I talked more to my best fren while her bf would be keeping quiet or vice versa. That was why I chose to give up after much trying. I remained quiet and so did the couple. It was not a good breakfast session.

My best friend wanted to go back to our secondary school to certify some documents after having breakfast but it was still early. So we just hanged around Tampin Town. We did not talk much to each other..Is it because of me..you guys are not talking that much?Huh!!

It was not a good outing for me!!!

Bad Day, Bad Luck, Bad Memories

It was yet another frustrating day for me…I was supposed to take the 1pm train to Seremban and then after that take the Komuter Service to Nilai. My friend would be waiting for me and send me to Kuala Lumpur. I planned to spend a day in KL and to settle my UTAR fees on the next day. However, luck was not by my side. I was damn pissed on that day. Bad things juz happened in one shot.. I was soooo…..tired..and disappointed..

Incident 1: The 1pm train was delayed. The person in-charge said it would be arriving at around 1.40pm..Daddy suggested to bring me to the Coconut Corner to have a fresh coconut before I board the train. It was still a nice drinking-session. I was still waiting patiently. The coconut was young enough and was juicy. Thanks daddy!!! At about 130pm, we drove back to the train station, expecting the train to arrive shortly. But the person in-charge told us that the train would not be arriving so soon as the engine is not functioning and it took times to fix the problem. I was so mad at that time. “What the hell?” Gosh. I had to find another solution to get to Seremban. The weather is hot and humid. I started to raise my voice and to throw my temper at anyone. The next solution will be the BUS..WHICH I had never ever travel in it before!! Later on I found out that the bus was not air-conditioned. And I don’t even know how to get to the komuter station from the bus-station. I was getting a little nervous..i was cracking my head to find the best solution! At that moment..i suddenly discovered that I forgot to bring my KL’s house key along with me..Pissed again! No choice, I had to get back to my house to get the key.. Dad was kind enough to be patient with me and to send me home..After ransacking the whole house and my room, I found out that the key was not in!! I had lost my key. Immediately I called Cheah Seong, to tell him about the incident as he was supposed to pick me up in Nilai. I was unreasonable and shouted at him at that time! Thanks CHEAH SEOng, he was as patient as my daddy. He said I might have left the key in his sis car and promised to find the key for me without any failure; he managed to get the key for me.It was in his sis’s car. Thanks again!! I told him that the train has broke down, and I had to take a bus to Seremban, he is kind though to offer to fetch me in Seremban so that I did not need to take komuter to Nilai. He was worry about me that time. Sorry dear, Have to trouble you once again.

Incident 2: I went to the bus station at 2.30pm hoping that there would be a bus to Seremban. Luck was against me.. There wasn’t any bus. I waited for half-an hour before the bus came. Meanwhile, I was still throwing my temper at Cheah Seong and also daddy.( I felt pretty sorry after the whole incident. I felt guilty.) I got up the bus, and there was something wrong with the ticket printing machine. The bus delayed for about 20 minutes before the driver started the journey. Guess what happened on the way? The bus broke down!!! Again..like the train..Its engine was not functioning well..Thus the driver drove the bus all the way back to the bus station, and we had to wait for another bus. I was so angry at that time..the weather was killing me..I screwed the bus driver and shouted at him in the public. Another bus arrived at 3.30pm it was an unpleasant journey. The bus was not air-conditioned and it was the first time I had ever traveled in the bus. I almost cried out in that bus. The wind had made my face sticky and dirty. By the time I reached Seremban, the entire make up on my face was gone, and it was indeed a very tiring journey. The journey took me around one hour fifteen minutes. Cheah Seong was already waiting for me at the bus station.

Incident 3: I went to Tar College to make some enquiries before I proceeded to Utar to pay my fees. Too bad the officer there was not helpful enough. They could not provide me with the information that I needed. Instead, they had directed me from the Pre-U office to the Examination Department, and after that to the admission. I was like a fool, walking around the college. Yet, I could not get the information that I wanted. After being disappointed, I decided to get over to Utar juz next by the college to make enquiries before going to the PJ Campus. Luckily the officer in charge there was good enough. She had given me clear instruction and good explanation too. She had even suggested me to make my payment in Public Bank. So that I need not proceed to the PJ Campus. (I don’t know the way to PJ) There is a Public Bank near Utar. We went there and luckily it was not a long queue. When it was my turn, the lady at the counter there suddenly told me that I could not make the payment here in the bank. I was stunned at that moment. I was a bit loud at that time and insisted that the payment could be made here.(It is a banker’s cheque. I could juz bank into Utar’s account). The senior officer came over to offer his help after hearing us arguing. As I had said, the payment could be done through the bank. Anyhow there would be a surcharge at RM2. I did not mind paying it as I could save the trouble finding the way to PJ. But that lady with her evil smile said I could have gone to PJ so that I could save the RM2. Gosh!!!

Incident 4: When I was walking back to the car, my shoes got worn off. Damn I was really that bad-luck. It was still considered a new pair of shoes which I had been wearing them or less than one month. I could not walk any longer. I could just wait by the roadside for Cheah Seong to come. ~Sigh~

It was really a bad day for me with lots of bad memories. I will never forget this day in my life!!! Daddy and Cheah Seong, sorry for throwing my temper and raising my voice. I hope you guys will be reading this and forgive me. Daddy, I know you will never visit my blog, but deep down I m really sorry to do this to you. Sorry to make you guys worry about me.. and have to call me often to check out whether I m safe through out the journey. You guys are really great. I love you all! Thanz for being there..

Do i really have to care?

Some one has asked me this question---Do you really have to care how ppl look at you..and how do ppl think bout you? I stopped for a moment..and think..and the answer is definitely a YES!! I care..and i really care..I take every words of others very seriously...
But why do i have to care bout it so much? I am happy with who i m now..i m not gonna change my perception..my personalities...or even image juz bcuz ppl dun like it..i juz wanna be myself..the real-self!!!
Are we in guilt in we dont explain or defend ourself when ppl are critisizing us? I am that kind of person who wont explain futher when i am in the right..but ppl juz get me wrong!!Why?i hate it..and i alwiz hate it!
Life goes as it comes...Friends come and go.. yeah..i wont be tht stupid that nerdy again..i hav to be more concious n more observativein future..i hav to make sure dat i m not gonna get hrt anymore by anyone else...
I hate holidays..especially long holidays...problems will raise up..n i have to do lotz of thinking..i hate to think..i hate to figure out things that hurt me..n i hate it so much..
i m really looking forward for the new sem to start..n i m gonna b stronger now
Friendship blossom in our heart. Strengthen by Time n action..who will be our frens n who will be our enemies then..no one will ever know..

Backstabbing

I get hurt today after knowing something i should not have known. If i know that it will be so hurting..i will not choose to know at the 1st place. I cant believe that this friend of mine is backstabbing me!! I treat her as a friend of mine, talking to her from my inner heart. I have never ever pretend in front of her.But i cant believe that she actually hates me..though she seems to be good and as friendly as other in front of me...OMG..i just hate it.
when someone is jealous about you, she or he will be trying their very best to talk bad bout you?to backstab you?or to stop someone from interacting with you?Is this wat they should do?Have i done sumthing wrong until this fren of mine have to backstab me...talk bad bout me in front of sumone whom i really cares?what i her purpose of doing all these?Is this what we called as friend?
I hate pretenders..she is so fake..she talks sweet in front of me..but behind..she is a hypocrite..i get really upset and dissapointed.Sometimes i wonder,how many true friends will we have in our life?Who is considered as our true friend and who is not?
Friends who are nice in front of you may not be your true friends. YOu may be inspired by their sweet talks.but deep down..they are juz fooling you around,taking you for granted. whereas frens who scold or screw you up..with harsh words..can be your true friends who care and love..Well this is life.whey will not alwiz stay they way they are..there is alwiz ups and downs in life...
But this friend of mine really dissapoint me..she is juz the only one whom i know doing this to me..wat bout others?I am sure there will be other friends of mine doing the same thing as her...i am slowly losing confidence in my friends...Sorry dude..but it is true..sometimes i would rather keep everything to myself than to reveal to my so-called friends..~sigh~